For My Love

Durrrr,, the sound of thunder woke me from my dream.. Not as usual, early in the morning as it rained with thunder boomed. Suddenly I remembered with my girlfriend, Dewi. I was 5 years going out with her and almost got married, but stalled after Dewi had crashed and killed all of her family. I rushed down from my bed and go to the bathroom. I go through rain and storm to meet Dewi, because I know Dewi most afraid of lightning.

When I got home Desi, apparently she was still asleep. Thankfully she did not hear the thunder, because I knew she was terrified by the thunder..

"What do you want to drink, sir?" Said bi sumi
"A cup of tea," I replied
"Yes, sir. Hmm..  I never saw you come here like this morning. You worry at Miss Dewi, right?? "Said bi sumi
"Yes bi, she's scared of the lightning. That's why I'm here. " I replied

Bi sumi is Dewi’s maid at home. Because Sumi had long worked at home Dewi, then Sumi has been regarded as Dewi own family. And only the faithful accompany bi sumi Dewi with the current condition.

The time is at 7:00, and I had a hour here, but Dewi had not woke up. Yup, Already two years, every day I have to feed breakfast, lunch, and dinner for her. Although Dewi did not ask, but I feel sad every time. I saw Dewi do the activities with fumbling around.. Since that accident, it’s not only killed all of her family, but also she should lose her eyes. And she could no longer reach her goal to become a famous designer..

"I’m sorry, Sir. I would say that Miss Dewi already awake." Said bi sumi

I rushed straight to the room. Dewi seen staring out her window. Although he could not see but I'm sure he could feel the cold after the rain in the morning.

"You're awake." I said, sitting down beside him.
" Beni." Answered Dewi and touching my face.
"Yes, how to sleep well?" I asked
"Well anyway, Beni present time?" Said Dewi
"At 7 through 15, so what Dewi?" I asked
"Did not work Beni," said Dewi
"Yes, mas give you breakfast after work " explained

Dewi replied with a cheery smile

I worked in one private station as journalism. Although the salary is not too big but I'm sure I could happy with the Dewi of love and unconditional love. Although the belief Dewi to me less since the accident but I will keep trying to restore confidence.

After work, I went to the hospital to ask the give eye. Since the accident, every day I always check if anyone wants to give his eyes to the dewi. But always the same result, there has been not give eye to the dewi. When discharged from the hospital, I met my colleague and friend to me and Dewi in high school.

"Hi Ben, what are you doing in hospital?" Said Aji
"hai, I was looking for Dewi donor eyes." I replied
"Oh, you still going out with Dewi? Very durable. Ben was already, there are many other girls are more perfect than Dewi. Now,what you hope from Dewi. He was not able to see. "Obviously Aji

When Aji said that,  makes me very angry,suddenly I was immediately slapped cheek aji. Aji is not the first to talk like that about the Dewi. Still a lot of my friends who told me to find another woman replacement Dewi, but I believe i can happy despite the condition of dewi like this. Because love can't be define it.

When I arrived to the dewi’s home , I was surprised to see Dewi opened the door for me.

"Who are you?" Dewi said while opened the door
"Loh Dewi, why your opened the door. Where is Bi sum? "I panicked
"Oh Beni, bi sum went to the markets. Please enter Beni. "said Dewi

My look continually working regard to face dewi  so , there feels tears this dripping instantly .

"Dewi ..." I called
"Yes Ben, what is it?" Said Dewi

"Ican I ask you?" 
"oh of course, what you want to ask?" Said Dewi with a smile
"Are you still to realize the aspiration to become famous designers?" I asked

Dewi instantly fell silent to hear the question,

"Why ask such a Ben, what the donor had no eyes for me?" Said Dewi.
"Not really, but I am sure someday there will be a good person and so kind where he love me who was willing to sacrifice her to the dewi." Explained
"Aminn, Dewi also wants it. Ben ... "call Dewi

For some reason when Dewi called me, I feel heart is sick, because I know what she say to me. She must have told me to look for another woman. And I'm convinced to this day he still does not believe that I remain faithful to him.

            After a while I heard him speak, it's true. He told me to find a replacement. And his words made ​​me feel sad and want to hug me.

"Dewi just want Beni happy, and Dewi do not want beni tormented awaits Dewi recovered. Dewi never forcing Beni waiting Dewi. Ben ... Dewi of know if Ben love Dewi but Dewi  until now not understand why Beni alas same Dewi , and Beni never talk it . Had enough Beni took care of the Dewi, had enough of a sense of the same Dewi compassion Beni. The goddess can live on its own without the help of  Ben. "Go Dewi

"Dewi, I know why they never say the same love Dewi? Ben why they never say the same love Dewi?. Because I know, love can not ever be explained and described just with words. I not understand what makes a Dewi can not believe the same with me, He promised to prove it if we can be happy even if Dewi can not see the gold. "Explained

Instantly I saw tears coming out from the eyes of Dewi I promise I will prove hello to everyone that a sincere love will stay forever.

I back to home with a feeling of dismay, heard these words are so hurt me Dewi. Somehow this feeling is not as usual, I felt something strange inside me. Instantly I woke up with blood-stained body and is a busy place. I did not realize I had died in an accident several days ago. Thankfully I have signed a donor eye to the dewi if one day I was gone.

A day later, Dewi came to my grave with a red rose and sepucuk poetry. Now I'm relieved, although the body is dead but the eyes will still be alive. Lead you to realize your ambition and prove that we can be happy forever.

For my Beloved

when your smile make me remember you because of the time, I really miss you and
crying when you missed me because then I could not be there ..
However, your beautiful eyes opened it, because then I would feel is near you ..
Because I have been in your heart forever ...
There's nothing else left for me, but the memories - good memories with you ..
her beautiful eyes that I used to see the beauty of love,
beautiful eyes that were once mine, now everything feels far left
life feels empty without beauty, heart, love, and my longing is yours
your love never set me free..
how can I fly to find another love when my wings have broken because you
your love will stay with me until the end of my life, and
after death by the hands of God will unite us again
however care has been fascinated by the figure of light in the darkness of the middle turn my dimmed rays but could not shine, and warm feelings are real.
I could never find another love other than love, because they figure unmatched by yourself in my soul
you'll never replaced
like shards of metal, perpetuate, solitude, loneliness, and sadness, now I've lost you.

from:Dewi

To:Beni